Day 13: Letter to siblings part 2: To a PEACE of my Heart, lil sis

13) Your siblings (write a letter)

(as usual, the letter always tend to end up being the blogs I have to dig deep

within so I'll be writing 3 letters 1st to my lil bro, then my lil sis, 

then to people I consider siblings :) (i'll add the letter M to the last letter)

I was 10 years old and they told me I'd be a Big sis....AGAIN -______________- 

i guess NOone noticed my reaction to having a lil bro smh 

So now I not only have to share w/ Niran BUTTTT 

now I have the change diapers again, make bottles, 

and did I mention that I have to SHARE again

 (I'm not good at sharing, lol). 

But on June 18th I was the most excited kid in the world, 

I got a call that my mom had a baby and it was a girl :)

Alafia (yes, like funga alafia, ashay ashay) but it means ... PEACE

 Since that day, things haven't always been peaceful. 

Being 10 years older than you, I was your mom! 

Even now, I see you as a little me, my kid!  Much like with Niran, 

I despised you too, b/c I promise you 

got EVERYTHING you wanted and to this day, If I want something.... 

if I can get you to want the same thing then I know we'll have it o_0 BUT that's 

what happens when you're the youngest -_-

Anyway, what you don't know is that YOU INSPIRE ME.  You push me to be smarter,

work harder, read bigger books, study longer b/c YOU ARE SOOOO smart! 

You placed in the 90 percentile in Math & English in Wake County. 

You place SECOND out of 75 kids in a NC State Chemistry class! 

You are everything I was too scared to be:

compassionate, caring, sharing, selfless, and more importantly, 

you put other's above yourself. 

You ALWAYS think of ME. 

I am HONORED to be YOUR Big sister! 

No matter what we've been through you've ALWAYS been

 sooooo easy to forgive And without you I NEVER would have learned to true definition of LOVE.  

NEVER give up on yourself! You are the BRIGHTEST 13 year old that I know :) 

Follow your heart, go to Yale, go to Princeton, go ANYWHERE (except for Dook)

and no matter what it looks like, NEVER GIVE UP! I BELIEVE IN YOU!

I believe that all the tears you've cried will NEVER be in vain! 

I believe you will accomplish EVERY goal you set for yourself. 

 I left Niran in charge of taking care of everybody while I'm gone

BUT I leave you in charge of LOVING EVERYONE: 

my momma, my grandma, Claudia,

Maya, Naja, Matthias and  Niran (and coffee) *and yes I did say Love Niran too* 

You express love so easily 

and have no problem being vulnerable.... 

So I challenge you to Hug them, Kiss them, Tell them you Love them

EVERY TIME you think of Me! Love yourself until you love ALL the hurt away :) 

Love, Your Big Sis,

Sade