" i just called to say... I LOVE YOU"

Love... such a heavy word that i was write and write and write and write about lol

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Day 24 ... Dear Mama - part 1

Day 24- A letter to your parents

****This blog made me dig WAAAAAAY within to figure out exactly what i wanted to say and how***** 

I decided to break this blog down into 4 parts to each of my 4 'parents': my mom, my grandma, my biological father, my step father.

Part 1

Dear Mama:

First of all, Thank You! Thank You for making the decision to keep me... you were 20 years old and just beginning life and you chose my life over pursuing you own personal hopes and dreams!  Thank You for not holding that against me and not reminding me everyday of the sacrifices you made to keep me :)

"And all my childhood memories, Are full of all the sweet things you did for me, And even though I act craaazy, I gotta thank the Lord that you made me" - 2pac

Second, I'm sorry! You paid for me to go to acting/dance/art classes and I disappointed you by wrecking my chance at acting .... :( We could have been rich right now, if i would have gone w/ Maya A. rather than Barney :( Though you'd probably never admit it, i know that I've disappointed you and haven't lived up to the standards that you raised me to live by and i apologize.  I should have graduated by now and I'm sorry that you aren't able to tell people your daughter graduated from UNC-Ch ... I'm working on it mom!  Sadly, it probably won't be on mother's day like i had imagined, it'll probably be December BUT I'm sure that won't matter lol just that i finally have the degree! 

"Forrest Gump mama said, life is like a box of chocolates, My mama told me go to school, get your doctorate, Something to fall back on, you could profit with, But still supported me when I did the opposite" - Kanye

Third, I Love You!  I Love You more than life itself and i know i don't tell you as much as i should BUT I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  You taught my perseverance - I remember seeing you work 2 and 3 jobs to make ends meet.  You taught me how to make it through a struggle - i didn't know we were poor when we ate mayo between 2 crackers... BUT i now know how to struggle and make the best of it!  My favorite thing you taught me was personality... I'm sarcastic, because of you! I'm funny, because of you! I'm full of personality, because of you!  I love you for everything you are, for everything you aren't and for everything you made me!

"Mama I just want you to know lovin' you is like food to my soul"- Boyz II Men

Lastly, of course there are things about both of us, memories we have made that haven't been so good BUT what's most important is that we're in this together!!!!!

"I wish I could take the pain away, If you can make it through the night there's a brighter day, Everything will be alright if ya hold on, It's a struggle everyday, gotta roll on, And there's no way I can pay you back, But my plan is to show you that I understand, You are appreciated" - 2pac

Day 23 outta 30 ... cravings

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot (so i just did 10 things)

1) Love ... I honestly just want 1 person in particular to love me again (the way they used to love me) and I'd do ANY & EVERYTHING I can to show them that I just want their love!  They feel like I'd treat them like crap BUT I won't ... I just want to be loved again!

2) Attention ... Who doesn't like to be in the spotlight?

3) Cream Soda ... it's soooo yummy! (p.s. I HATE root beer)

4) Birthday Cake Flavored Ice Cream (Edy's and Marvel make it) ... it will change ur life!

5) Sushi .... I could eat at Shiki and Kanki ... daily!

6) Taco bell .... it's my Fav fast food restaurant

7) Chicken n Dumplings .... I rarely get this (unless i eat @ mama dips .... NO ONE makes it anymore :(   )

8) Naja and Matthias ... I LOVE them  soooo much and I feel 10 times closer to my cousin when I see their smile, eyes, mannerisms, etc 

9) Money ... Money to be made ... bets believe Sade got it! 

10) Acceptance ... i just want to be accepted for who i am and who I'm not ... all my shortcomings and all my highlights

Day 22 of 30

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

i don't know what makes me different from everyone so i'll just send you to this blog and you can see what makes me different, I guess... http://uniquecadence.blogspot.com/2010/12/what-will-they-say-about-me-when-im.html

Day 21 of 30 ... #Fridaynightlights

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

i know of 1 person that makes me sooooo happy :) ... too bad i didn't get my 23rd bday wish BUT i know he's a busy man and i STILL love him!

Cole and I after UNC concert

Cole and I @ CIAA ... thanx Mek!

Cole and I during Que Conclave!

Cuffing Season ... day 20 of 30 ...

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Let me 1st say that I am NOT a 'typical' black female:


1) I don't believe "ALL" men are dogs ... i think there are some GREAT men out there .... now 1 of them has 2 find me :)


2) I believe in saving myself til marriage .... this seems to be a point of contention with 'most' men b/c they don't want to wait for the reward smh


3) I believe in the 'traditional' view of marriage... the wife should submit to the husband! Relationships are 50/50, you give and you take but ultimately the man is the head of the household!

Cuffing Season:

Ok as far as who i see myself marrying, I think he has to be HILARIOUS!  (Honestly, it's sad how much i laugh in 1 day smh so he HAS to be able to keep me laughing/ have a sense of humor).  He'll be a man with character, I'm very serious about actions over words, so he will certainly have integrity and character.  I see myself with someone who's more quiet than myself.... I tend to be LOUD, charismatic, very outgoing so i think to have a perfect balance he'll be more laid back, quieter than myself.  All in All, I just think that he'll love me for me :)  Love me for my failures, push me towards/thru my goals, kiss me just because, make me breakfast even if he can't cook, call/text just because, send me flowers even though i don't like flowers lol, and i just hope that i can affect his life AS MUCH as he will affect mine! 

30 day Blog Challenge ... day 19 "a rose by any other name would smell as sweet"

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

***let it be known that i prefer plain ole Sade BUT i don't mind S dot .... i HATE Sharde, Saaaade, De' and Sadie****

1) Gilbert (got this 1 from Stacey in 5th grade and it stuck up until high school... i don't remember how 1 gets a nickname like this in the 5th grade???) 

2) Shar-de (most of my family calls me this -______- b/c sha-day is soooo difficult to pronounce)

3) Shar (my big sis calls me this .... as a parody of "shar-de")

4) Sadie (my Aunt and people i worked with at kohl's call me this to get on my nerves)

5) De' (an ex-roommate called me this and it has since caught on -_____-)

6) S dot (I created this 1 myself ... It was originally S.G. (S dot G dot) BUT my phonathon pplz shortened it to just S.) 

 ** FEEL FREE TO COMMENT AND ADD OTHER ONES AND WHY***