Day 3: What would you do if you had an invisibility cloak (i'm clearly on my Harry Potter Swag w/ this blog :) )
If I had an invicisbility cloak I would walk in to UNC Registars Office and put it in the system that I have completed my tenure there and then i'd show up at graduation waiting to get my degree confirmed.
But on the real...
I would use it to go into the White House and get a forreal inside look at politics :)
PART II:
Today's Letter is C and the song i'm feeling is a THROWBACK .... and i LOVE 90s music :)
soooo here's Candy Rain ... Heavy D and so fa'real
Past: It was Summer of 2007 and I went to St. George Island in Florida with my family on vacation. While I was down there on the Island, they had a Henna shop ....My cousin Jasmine and I went and got Henna tats! After we got them my uncle said "Next, you're gonna wanna get tattoos" <<<< He was right!
Present:
My 1st Tat:
It is simply 2 nails forming a cross w/ a red "sign of the fish" hanging on the cross. I researched and researched and did a Bible Study and then did more research on tattoos b/c I REALLY didn't want to upset God w/ getting a tat sooo after much researching, i decided on this tat. It means the world to me, hence why it's over my heart! It is a testament and reminder that Jesus died for ME, he died so that I might LIVE, and the least I can do is LIVE FOR HIM!
My 2nd Tat: You'd be surprised how many people "don't get it" lol ... it's my name spelled in music notes :) I LOVE music (hence why it's tied into this blog)... soooo this is just showing how music is so deep in me, it's on my body forever :)
My 3rd Tat:
My third tat is a testament to my life! I LOVE Invictus [ which is where i get "I am the master of my fate] and I read a response poem to Invictus called "The Soul's Captain" 1 day by Orson F. Whitley (look it up) where he ends the poem [" I see in Him and Him alone, the Captain of my Soul"] and I meshed them Together to say "I am the Master of My Fate, HE is the Captain of my soul"....
Future Tats: (my moms will be sad to know I plan on getting more smh)
but I plan on at least 1 more after/when I graduate and it'll be some type of ode' to UNC-Chapel Hill. I haven't quite figured out the logistics b/c i don't want to put the Old Well on my body lol BUT it'll def speak to the trials & tribulations I've experienced at UNC-Ch :)
Part II:
*Sesame St. voice* Ok, Today's Letter is A for Apple (which I'm Allergic to -___-)
The Song of today is: "Afterwhile" by Kirk Franklin Feat Yolanda Adams
"scares will heal, you'll love again... it won't hurt, Afterwhile"
(I listen to this when I need assurance that the pains/crying/sadness/feeling defeated/etc have overcome me and I NEED to hear that 10 years from now I'll be driving a BMW w/ AC w/ a house, a husband, a degree, and kids :) ... It won't hurt Afterwhile)
Sooooo I did a 30 days challenge a couple months back and it took me like 90 days to complete it smh THIS TIME I've learned my lesson, write, write, write .... I'm still going to put 1000% into the blog they'll probably be wayyyy shorter so i can get through these 2 in 1, 26 day blog challenge :)
Per the advice of Jordan pretty much made my own challenge and i'm ULTRA excited about it :)
Part 1 will be the questions/topics i put together for myself and Part 2 will be this:
Every day, post lyrics, a music video, or a song with the title of the song beginning with every letter of the alphabet. So the first day, do the letter A, the second, do B, and so on until you get to the end of the alphabet.
***So that's why i made it 26 days so i can cover the Alphabet of Music :) ****
My friends often criticize me b/c they say I"burn bridges" too much and too often... (which lowkey I agree smh and the worst part about meburning bridges is that, I often have the cross that bridge VERY SOON after i burn it ... SMH)
I had a bury a relative this last weekend and after seeing how cancer can literally eat you alive, I realized death (burning) can sometimes be positive! Chemo's job is to come in a BURNaway cancer cells ....
So after much introspection, before I embark on my new quest (note my last blog), i realized there are some people, things, thoughts, ideas that I MUSTburn before I can truly be come better and healthier.
I think Usher said it best:
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
So this blog is dedicated to you,
I love you, I've loved you more than life itself and a while ago we decided we should part ways but I NEVER truly let go. I fell in love with you (and I didn't even know it) I literally woke up one day and decided I didn't want to live without in my life! I decided your joy, happiness, wants were more important than mine EVEN after you told/showed/texted/e-mailed that you didn't love me "like that" anymore. I STILL HELD ON to the hope of your being back in love with me one day! I would give up my friends, family and my literal life to spend time with you for a millisecond. You RULED my emotions with an iron fist. NOONE's words carried more weight than yours. I gave you ALL the control in my life and i didn't even realize it.... you are CANCER! You came in like a thief in the night and took over my life with no questions asked HOWEVER today, June 9, 2011, I'm taking control back!
I WILL NOT jump over couches, bend over backwards, jump through hoops to get to my phone when i hear your ringtone!
I WILL NOT place your request on a higerh level than anyone elses!
I WILL NOT go an emotional roller coaster because you didn't respond to my e-mail/text/calls in the manor I wanted you too
I WILL NOT cry because i don't "feel" like you love me
I love you enough to let you GO. There's no love lost BUT I can't fulfil my destiny while I have cancer sooo I'm letting God (and a good number/text blocker app from droid) be your CHEMO ;) until I can learn to stand on my own 2 feet. Until I realize i no longer NEED/Long for your approval! You are now dismissed out of my life until further notice...
Girl, understand why See it's burning me to hold onto this I know this is something I gotta do But that don't mean I want to What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just I feel like this is coming to an end And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you I gotta let it burn...
I saw Eat Pray Love recently and towards the end, Ms.Gilbert said the quote below...
"If you are brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting (which can be anything from your house, to your bitter old resentments) and set out on a truth-seeking journey (either externally or internally), and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue, and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher, and if you are prepared - most of all - to face (and forgive) some very difficult realities about yourself....then truth will not be withheld from you."
This quote resonated with me for 1 reason ...
I NEED A CHANGE & I know 1 is looming
I'm on a quest to become a better person, a quest to fulfil my dreams, a quest to help humanity & my family sooo
Instead of Eating, I'll be FASTING ... I'm trying to Hear directly from the Lord which is why I'll be
PRAYING about which direction He wants me to go in, and once He tells me a direction, I'll be LEAVING......
You log on Twitter and you're likely to see "Why aren't you following me?"
Why?
Everybody wants you to be #teamFollowBack
Why?
B/c they find it disrespectful if they follow you and you don't follow them back
Why?
B/c when you follow someone you can READ their thoughts, feelings, fav lyrics, know where they are, etc ... following them gives you INSIGHT into their life
So
you not following them is equivalent to saying "I don't know (don't want to know) who you are" soooo WHY would I follow you back?
I asked all those questions to ask ... Who do you "claim" to follow in real life? Jesus?
I was on youtube because "The shepherd song" (listen to the song below if you don't know it) came in my spirit and I found 3 adults singing it and A LOT of youth choir's singing it and I was PERPLEXED b/c yes it's TRADITIONAL for the young ones to sing this song however the LYRICS are more applicable to the GROWN folks....
You say that He's the master of you're fate, captain of your soul BUT do you ACTUALLY follow Him?
Does He actually come first in your life?
The 2nd verse lyrics says:
"I told my sheep to love one another,
even your enemies too;
but you have love for only those
who have that love for you.
And you say I am your shepherd;
why aren't you following me?"
When I heard it I immediately was convicted. So I asked myself am I REALLY following Jesus?
Do I read His Timeline for my life hourly (Bible)? No
Do I listen to His fav songs on repeat (Gospel)? No
Do I come eat to His FAV restaurant as much as possible (Church)?No
He probably finds that VERY disrespectful ... He sends His angels DAILY out to follow me and monitor my every move and protect me ... and ALL He wants is for me to join #TeamFollowBack ....
Trust me when I tell you that I'm preaching to myself and I hope this causes my readers to take introspection as well ...
If we say that He is our Shepherd.... Why aren't we following Him?
