My Cole World

*by show of hands ... How many people found out about J.Cole b/c of ME??????* (i guarantee it's like 50+ people with their hands up)

 I LOVE MUSIC.  How many times have I listened to an artist and their flow sent chills through me? ONE TIME
"Flow Cold as the Shoulder of Gold digging hoes, when a broke nigga approaches" (A Star is Born) <<< THIS made me want MORE! I asked WHO IS THIS GUY? Who is J.COLE???
My friends and I have a serious appreciation for music so we often bounce music off of each other.  My friend and I discussed J.Cole and decided o look up youtube video's .... we came across this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-dyPeGDeS3o (Lights Please).  That very day, we spent about 4 hours going through all the youtube videos of him rapping and after hearing him MURDER track after track after track.... I pledged MY allegiance as a FAN!

I LOVE J.Cole b/c:

1) He reps NC (+ a Carolina Fan) - He often tells stories about his mother raising him in Fayettville,NC.

 "They say I'm the down south Nas, The east coast Pac, The Carolina Andre, The Fayettenam Kanye, So join it, ya can't beat it, To all the nonbelievers, If you missed it I'll repeat it, I'm the light skinned Jesus" (I really mean it)

2) He's not Soulija Boy (who got discovered on youtube), he's not the son of a rapper that got put on (Diggy and Jojo) ... He paid his dues FIRST....

"At dinner with hov hoping that he pass the baton... He just pass the patron" (Beautiful Bliss) >>> here He tells this story of getting dissed by Jay-z http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZRoYg-qzqXk
 
 3) J.Cole has somethings that a lot of mainstream artist don't have >>>> EDUCATION

He graduated from St.John's (which is a well respected institution) 

4) He knows the struggle

"I represent the struggle nigga I say what they never say" ($1 & a dream)
"Make a good Salary, Just to pay Sally Mae" (Blow Up) 

5) Lastly and most importantly .... He has DELIVERY

*I can probably post like 20 lines right here BUT I'll just quote like 3 of my favorites*

a) "And tell them niggas at the top we want yo spot we are for real
And yet we heard you got it locked but like them socks we on your heels
So you best be on your toes nigga" - Beautiful Bliss 

b) “That’s that nigga from the Ville that I heard that Hova signed

The rap form Lebron, "Oh girl that boy the bomb!”

No chain around his neck but better watch out for the charm" - Ladies

c) "I thought that real sh-t is what you been fiending ’bout
what you been praying for? What you been screaming ’bout?
ironic you been sleeping on the one that you been dreaming ’bout" - Looking for Trouble

I don't know what the future holds for Cole BUT I support him!  I'm soooooooooooooo ready for him to release an album and hopefully the pressures of becoming more and more mainstream (like Drake) doesn't get him caught up.  He's a talented rapper and the game NEEDS him 2 breathe LIFE back into Hip Hop.<<< I said all that to say.....
There's NOTHING LIKE HIM!

"You n-ggas spit it with no one to vouch for your lies
I spit it how you see it, but aint had the words to say it
I spit it how you think it but aint had the balls to speak it
I put it out, sit around and let the world critique it
Until the fans up on it early like a n-gga leaked it
Just know you f-cking with the best, this be our little secret
Until the world find out and then y'all gotta share me
Til then just know there's nothing like him and there's nothing near me"

If loving you is wrong, i don't want to be right

I went to see The Adjustment Bureau tonight and i LOVED the move >>>> here's a link to get a synopsis.  http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1810119644/info

Anyway, the movie promoted me to come to grips with my reality ....

I don't want to give the movie away so I'll speak in general terms .... Some people in our family nor friends will never approve of .... the person you love is married, the person you love is addicted to drugs, the person you love has kids, the person you love is the same sex as you, the person you love doesn't have a college degree, the person you love has put their hands on you, the person you love isn't a Christian, the person you love is in prison, the person you love was found on the Internet ... the list goes on and on of reasons why family/friends don't approve!

I'll never forget being at my cousin's funeral (after she was killed by her husband) and one of the first things Pastor Hill said was "We can't help who we love" and he was simply defending my cousin against people who ask "how does a woman still love a man after he has choked/beat/etc her?"  I agree with Pastor Hill ... I can't help who i love!

There are a lot of areas in life that i look at and judge people based on their decisions BUT one area that i truly try to NEVER judge is ... LOVE

Love is the STRONGEST emotion I have EVER encountered.  And to be told that you can't love someone because of circumstances or based on how other people feel, is unfair!!!  It puts love in a container AND if you know LOVE, like I know LOVE.... it's claustrophobic :)

So I blogged to say, I LOVE YOU!  My love for you defies gravity,  unmeasurable, undying, never wavering, unconditional .... LOVE!!!! and if loving you is wrong .... I DON'T WAN TO BE RIGHT!

21 ... get some Adele in our life :)

 This song touches my soul.....

I heard, that your settled down.
That you, found a girl and your married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things, I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold it back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited.
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best, for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah.

You'd know, how the time flies.
Only yesterday, was the time of our lives.
We were born and raised in a summer haze.
Bound by the surprise of our glory days.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you say:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead", yay.

Nothing compares, no worries or cares.
Regret's and mistakes they're memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remembered you say:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yay yeh yeah.

Letter to my Cousin

I promised myself that after you died, i would REMIND every1 of who were so that your death wouldn't be in vain.  I miss you Cuzzo.... 

*I read this Letter to my cousin at her funeral*

The UnSpoken Effect of Domestic Violence:

The Loss of My Cousin, My Sister, My Friend –Nneka Talibah Sutton

By: Sade Uniqua Gilbert

November 23^rd 1982 was when your mother had the strength to push you through

She didn’t know then that her baby girl, would tremendously affect this world.

See even though your life was cut short at the hands of someone who claimed love

You now will live on in the lives of those you touched and you can look on from above.

Nneka will see me walk across the stage at UNC-Ch; she will see her mother raise her kids with the same integrity and love that she was raised in.  She’ll see Maya get a diploma in June 2007, and even though in flesh she won’t be here she’ll meet us one day in heaven.

The news and the lawyers may say you died for a number of reasons, but I know the Lord took you, because it was the end of your season.

Even though God’s will is sometimes hard to digest, every woman and man should look at your life as a test.

It’s not a test with A’s, B's, C's, or D’s but a test of never accepting violence domestically.

I know you stayed because of the kids and you hoped things would get better

But seeing it now, I wish you would have left so I wouldn’t have to read this letter.

However, now I have to spread the word, since you are no longer here

Please, never turn your head to domestic violence, nor lend a deaf ear

I wouldn’t ever wish this on anybody’s daughter to have her lying here

I do however wish everyone your honor, strength, and beauty to weather life’s storms

Lord fill us with your joy to help us carry on.

Nneka you’ll never be replaced, we’ll never forget that smile on your face, and I pray for grace and peace to surround everyone in this place.

So that when we leave we never forget her story, and that we go out and teach the world that in all things God shall get the glory!

Day 30 ... the END

Day 30- Who are you? 

I can't believe i am FINISHED w/ this Blog challenge!!!!!!!!!! Thank you to EVERY single person who is read daily/weekly/monthly ... I hope in these 30 days (aka 120 days) you have learned things about me that i wouldn't tell a soul lol I'm excited to be closing this chapter of the blog and i'm ready for the new one around the corner ;) Again, THANK YOU for listening to my Heart's song .... Unique Cadence 

*i'm writing this off the top of my head ... i'm an artist and i'm sensitive about my _____* (badu)

Who am I?

I'm simply complex, passionately calm, commonly unique and a whole bunch of other synonyms and Antonyms.

I am contradiction

I'm the person when you think of when it's time to have game night!

I'm the Spades/phase10/Monopoly Queen

I'm the lady you long for after you realize your ex lacks personality

I talk in Sarcasm

I'm the one who will drive to the end of the world, just to make you see that I LOVE YOU!

I am Love

I'm that feeling you get after life kicks you down and you get up and fight back :) 

I am resilience

I'm the daughter, you've prayer for...

i am intelligent

I'm the one you think of when you can't think of lyrics

I am MUSIC

I'm Me

I'm Sade

Day 29 of 30 ... live. learn. love

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

I learned about:

communication - There was someone in my life that i hadn't talked to since Oct of 2009 and recently i had a conversation with them and it was certainly a freeing experience.  I had forgiven them a LONG time ago BUT I hadn't spoken with them in about 1.5 years.  Within that convo i agreed that communication is best.... I decided that day that if I'm such a good writer THEN I should certainly not pick and choose who/when/where/why to communicate with people, but to communicate with everyone b/c it makes life LESS complicated!

redemption - In life you can make some mistakes in love that you would NEVER imagine.  You can love a person so much that you THINK you could never hurt them to a point where they'll ever question your love for them BUT a couple mistakes later ..... they don't trust you.  When you really, genuinely, love someone, them not knowing IF you love them can cut you deeper than a sword.  At first you don't think you should have to re-prove your love BUT after much consideration..... you realize the trust has to be re-established!  So, I learned this month that it's going to take TIME and lots of EFFORT to prove that ultimately, i do love you!  I love you without hesitation .... So until you "feel my love".... I'll be paying an atonement of love .... redemption

Day 28 of 30 .... changes?

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

How have I changed? I think I'm striving towards my goals of being a better person.  I was a lot more selfish, egotistical, rude than i am now.... I wasn't as confident in my ability to graduate BUT now I am.  I'm definitely more grounded in my faith.  Honestly, i have a LONG road ahead to become the BEST person I can be BUTTTT I'm certainly further along now than before.