Day 13: part 3: Letter to siblings ...my big sister

13) Your siblings (write a letter)

(as usual, the letters always tend to end up being the blogs I have to dig deep

within so I'll be writing 3 letters 1st to my lil bro, then my lil sis, 

then to people I consider siblings :) (i'll add the letter M to the last letter)

To Darla B.

Thank you, 

You've been there for me since I was 13 years old. My big sister, 10 years later and you're STILL in my corner despite EVERYTHING we've been through! You've been there for me when my own family wasn't there.  You've been there financially when I was going to be homeless, you've been there to dry my tears when life left me heartless.  I've now matured into a woman and you still treat me like i'm 13 lol BUT I appreciate it!  If I want an honest answer, I will always know who to call :)

I can't say Thank You enough for pushing me to give and do my best, you were in the audience during my first high school play, in the congregation when I was the early bird speaker, twice, in the stands when I graduated, in the courtroom when I had to go to honor court, twice... Thank You! 

Also thank you to your family, ya'll invited me in for thanksgiving, Christmas & even family reunions... when I had no definition of family, you all redefined it and I'm forever indebted to you; THANK YOU

As I go on this date with destiny in Iowa, I thank you for pushing me!

A sister can be seen as someone who is both ourselves and very much not ourselves - a special kind of double.  ~Toni Morrison

Day 13: Letter to siblings part 2: To a PEACE of my Heart, lil sis

13) Your siblings (write a letter)

(as usual, the letter always tend to end up being the blogs I have to dig deep

within so I'll be writing 3 letters 1st to my lil bro, then my lil sis, 

then to people I consider siblings :) (i'll add the letter M to the last letter)

I was 10 years old and they told me I'd be a Big sis....AGAIN -______________- 

i guess NOone noticed my reaction to having a lil bro smh 

So now I not only have to share w/ Niran BUTTTT 

now I have the change diapers again, make bottles, 

and did I mention that I have to SHARE again

 (I'm not good at sharing, lol). 

But on June 18th I was the most excited kid in the world, 

I got a call that my mom had a baby and it was a girl :)

Alafia (yes, like funga alafia, ashay ashay) but it means ... PEACE

 Since that day, things haven't always been peaceful. 

Being 10 years older than you, I was your mom! 

Even now, I see you as a little me, my kid!  Much like with Niran, 

I despised you too, b/c I promise you 

got EVERYTHING you wanted and to this day, If I want something.... 

if I can get you to want the same thing then I know we'll have it o_0 BUT that's 

what happens when you're the youngest -_-

Anyway, what you don't know is that YOU INSPIRE ME.  You push me to be smarter,

work harder, read bigger books, study longer b/c YOU ARE SOOOO smart! 

You placed in the 90 percentile in Math & English in Wake County. 

You place SECOND out of 75 kids in a NC State Chemistry class! 

You are everything I was too scared to be:

compassionate, caring, sharing, selfless, and more importantly, 

you put other's above yourself. 

You ALWAYS think of ME. 

I am HONORED to be YOUR Big sister! 

No matter what we've been through you've ALWAYS been

 sooooo easy to forgive And without you I NEVER would have learned to true definition of LOVE.  

NEVER give up on yourself! You are the BRIGHTEST 13 year old that I know :) 

Follow your heart, go to Yale, go to Princeton, go ANYWHERE (except for Dook)

and no matter what it looks like, NEVER GIVE UP! I BELIEVE IN YOU!

I believe that all the tears you've cried will NEVER be in vain! 

I believe you will accomplish EVERY goal you set for yourself. 

 I left Niran in charge of taking care of everybody while I'm gone

BUT I leave you in charge of LOVING EVERYONE: 

my momma, my grandma, Claudia,

Maya, Naja, Matthias and  Niran (and coffee) *and yes I did say Love Niran too* 

You express love so easily 

and have no problem being vulnerable.... 

So I challenge you to Hug them, Kiss them, Tell them you Love them

EVERY TIME you think of Me! Love yourself until you love ALL the hurt away :) 

Love, Your Big Sis,

Sade

Brother Dear ... Pt.1

13) Your siblings (write a letter)

(as usual, the letter always tend to end up being the blogs I have to dig deep

within so I'll be writing 3 letters 1st to my lil bro, then my lil sis, 

then to people I consider siblings :) (i'll add the letter M to the last letter)

Niran,

I remember when I was told I'd have a little brother ... 

I was SOOOOOOOOOOOO excited!!!! The prospect of being 

able to take care of a baby made me TOO happy .... 

THEN I realized ... 

hey,this baby won't be a baby forever -_- 

so that means I HAVE to share with him, 

babysit him, watch after him, protect him, 

and be a "good" example -__________- 

that's NOT what I signed up 4

I didn't know how to love you and often I despised you b/c no matter what YOU did, I got in trouble!  I felt

like I got pushed to the maximum and our family just let you skate by.... you could do no wrong and if you did

there was always someone there to make an excuse for you.  But the more I grow up, I realize, I despised you b/c I despised MYSELF.  Once I came to this reality, I figured out how to love you as my brother  but by that time.... I was moving out the house, I'm sorry 0_o.

 Then one day I came back home and you had a deeper voice & WAYYYYY taller than me.  When I left for school, you listened to me, you emulated me, you looked up to me ... when I returned, you were different.  I no longer saw you as my son... you were my brother. 

I Love you lil bro, I see the man that you will be if you are patient and give yourself a chance!  You remind me SO much of myself, you're charismatic, you easily makes friends, resilient, and protective of your family!  You WILL overcome EVERY statistic that's been placed on you b/c you are a black man! You will defy ANY generational curses! God has His hands on you and with maturity I KNOW you'll turn out a hansom gentleman.  BUT know that no matter who old you get, how tall you get, you will ALWAYS be my little brother!

P.S. While I'm in Iowa... you, sir,  are in charge! Take care of my momma, my grandma, Claudia, Maya, Naja, Lafi & Matthias (and coffee)! Don't do ANYTHING your Big sis wouldn't do :) and yes I'll be keeping tabs on your senior year of high school while I'm in a different timezone!  I'm going to Iowa, not only to make my life better for myself, but for you & your future :)

Love, Sade

Day 12 of 26 (L)

 Favorite cooking TV show

random Sade fact:  If you turn on my tv at any random date/time 99% of the time my tv will be on Food Network! I <3 Food Network, Bobby Flay, Mario Batali, Cat Cora, Guy Fietti, Marc Conent, "The Chairman", Alton Brown, and I even watch it a lot in the throwback years w/ Rachel Ray& Emeril  Lagasse *BAM!*

I said all that to say, it's VERY hard for me to pick my FAVORITE cooking show b/c I watch them all except for Barefoot Contessa <<< i HATE her food, it NEVER looks yummy -_-

But If I must ... I'll go w/ Iron Chef ... America

If you too are a Food Network fan then you know Iron Chef started in Japan

THEN came to America

I LOVE this show b/c of all the pressure, it's normally an awkward "secret ingredient" and it really challenges chefs.

My 2nd fav show is CHOPPED :) 

Part II:

Today's Letter is "L" :

*I know this wasn't a serious post BUT I'm having some serious feelings..... this 1st song is from the heart ... Isley Brother's Living for the love of YOU*

Second song is less emotional - The song that made me fan of J.Cole - "Lights Please" and below it is a cover from a guy name "Crucial" ... I discovered him 2day and I like his version where he's telling a story of Domestic Violence

New news

I know ya'll nosey so ima keep it simple:

Who: 

So let me start by saying THANK YOU LORD! secondly, Me

What/Where: 

Well today I am proud to say I am leaving, I will be moving to Cedar Rapids, Iowa 

When:

by July 25th.  

Why:

I made a blog about a week ago about "Fast, Pray, Leave" Where I vaguely mentioned leaving...... The Lord had spoken to me while I was fasting/praying about getting into summer school that I would be ALONE for a season.  I took this to mean, spending more time at home alone, not hanging out w/ my friends as much, etc....... Shortly after, I had a convo w/ Tamekia where she told me "sometimes you have to go away for awhile THEN come back and finish your goal" and that statement IMMEDIATELY clicked in my spirit.  I applied for a position that was a promotion of my current position as a Supervisor to be a Senior Supervisor.  However, I knew If I got the job i'd have to relocate to Iowa.... Well, I was offered the position today and I accepted :) Cedar Rapids here I come :)

Full Circle:

I applied to be a Senior Supervisor in Iowa & while I was interviewed for the position they let me know that I would only be a supervisor for a little while THEN move on to graduate services where I'll be traveling setting up call centers <<<<<<< THAT is what I wanted to do AFTER I got my degree from UNC .... they are hiring me for that job WITHOUT me having my degree yet .... JESUS..... So though I don't have my degree YET, I'm still qualified for the job

I said all that to say, YES I plan on finishing my degree at UNC-CH. THANK YOU to EVERY person that SUPPORTED me, PRAYED for me, BELIEVED in me, and even CRITICIZED me....

DELAY IS NOT DENIAL

So let this serve as encouragement.... TRUST the Lord, pursue your DREAM!

Sue Sylvester

Day 11: Your favorite Sue Sylvester moment 

I watch Glee RELIGIOUSLY! I LOVE the whole show and though they def tip-toe on blasphemy and show things that I wouldn't consider socially responsible, I STILL love the music & the drama of the show!  Sue is my FAVORITE character ... probably b/c I can a bit of a douche-bag, like her. 

My FAV Sue moment was quote, "I surgically removed my tear ducts when i was 19, b/c  I wasn't using them"  <<< I DVRed it and played it over & over b/c it made perfect sense & I laughed so hard b/c she was soooo serious lol If you aren't using your tear ducts... take out out smh 

However, this last season she def cried about her sister dying soooo I question her surgical abilities :)

PART II:

Today's Letter is K 

*this is my FAVORITE J.Cole Freestyle of ALL time* (the runner up was knuck if you buck lol so shake ya dreds to this!)

"Knock on Wood Freestyle" ... if you gone do dirt then you can't leave a stain!

Wedding Bells

Day 10: A Song You Want Played At Your Wedding  and J (Mayer Hawthorne)

Well, up until I was about 16, I wanted Chaka Kahn "Sweet Thing" to play at my wedding :) HOWEVER My moms said that would be a "no-no" b/c the song is about adultery... I didn't believe her.  I was naive, "I would love you anyway, even if you cannot stay" <<<< I thought the man was going to work .... CLEARLY in retrospect i see he's going home to his wife o_0 can't have that playing at MY wedding :(

Soooo the more I matured, I decided Faith Evan "If I had One Wish" Will be played (and if i can afford vocal lessons, I'll be singing it to my husband) I agree with EVERY word in that song coincidentally, I'm not currently in love w/ any1 BUT when I do fall in love.....

If I had one wish, boy
I'd wish you next to me
And it could be in summer, fall or spring, boy
'Cause you make my heart sing
I wanna give my heart, my soul, my love to you
Oh baby
'Cause every day I'm not with you
I'm missing you like crazy
I need for you to...

(Chorus)

I need for you to love me (love me),
hold me (hold me), touch me(touch me)
Down deep in my soul, and never let it go
Of the love we share, no one compares to you
I'll never let you go 'cause I really love you so
Oh I...
I'll never let you go, oh no

PART II:

Today's Letter is J

About 2 year ago, my friend (Jessica) invited me to a concert on Franklin St and she mentioned names I'd NEVER heard before but she said she knew them for Detroit & promised they were good sooo I was down!  

I was one of the BEST concert I'd EVER attended! Jamal Bufford went on stage 1st (far right) w/ Dj 14KT (beside me) and RIPPED it, great delivery, great structure, told great stories and I was beyond IMPRESSED!

THEN

This White boy in a cardigan and jeans stepped on stage (in my head I was RET TO GO)... He started singing and I was HOOKED sooo I present to you ... "Just ain't gonna work out" by Mayer Hawthorne