Day 29 of 30 ... live. learn. love

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

I learned about:

communication - There was someone in my life that i hadn't talked to since Oct of 2009 and recently i had a conversation with them and it was certainly a freeing experience.  I had forgiven them a LONG time ago BUT I hadn't spoken with them in about 1.5 years.  Within that convo i agreed that communication is best.... I decided that day that if I'm such a good writer THEN I should certainly not pick and choose who/when/where/why to communicate with people, but to communicate with everyone b/c it makes life LESS complicated!

redemption - In life you can make some mistakes in love that you would NEVER imagine.  You can love a person so much that you THINK you could never hurt them to a point where they'll ever question your love for them BUT a couple mistakes later ..... they don't trust you.  When you really, genuinely, love someone, them not knowing IF you love them can cut you deeper than a sword.  At first you don't think you should have to re-prove your love BUT after much consideration..... you realize the trust has to be re-established!  So, I learned this month that it's going to take TIME and lots of EFFORT to prove that ultimately, i do love you!  I love you without hesitation .... So until you "feel my love".... I'll be paying an atonement of love .... redemption

Day 28 of 30 .... changes?

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

How have I changed? I think I'm striving towards my goals of being a better person.  I was a lot more selfish, egotistical, rude than i am now.... I wasn't as confident in my ability to graduate BUT now I am.  I'm definitely more grounded in my faith.  Honestly, i have a LONG road ahead to become the BEST person I can be BUTTTT I'm certainly further along now than before.  

Day 2...Caskets or Roses for Valentines Day...choose LIFE over VIOLENCE

**My cousin's mom wrote this in response to my cousin's death and i think it's FAR better than any blog i could EVER write b/c it's from a mother's perspective.*** 

This is Domestic Violence

by Maya Sutton on Monday, February 14, 2011 at 6:55pm

(about my sister Nneka)-Written by my mother, Claudette Hill

This is domestic violence. My daughter Nneka, mother of 2 young children, was heinously and atrociously stabbed to death by her husband. Six months prior to her death he attempted to choke her to death. She spent that night with me. We took a walk and she showed me the bruises on her neck. I told her to get the children and leave. She had many excuses for staying, one being to not give up her new home. He lured her to him when she stepped out of the shower. He stabbed her when she approached him. While he was stabbing her she told him that “you don’t have to do this” and he continued. He broke one knife off in her and dragged her to the kitchen to get another knife to continue. He assumed his two year old was asleep, but he saw him stabbing her and later tried to awake his mother. He left her naked body on the floor dying with the children in bed while he went to get his passé in her car to make the murder appear gang related. He took money from her wallet for gas. He returned and wrote on the floor in her blood. Again he left with the children in bed supposedly asleep for several hours; he returned at 6:00 and reported a break in. Today is Valentine’s Day and the person who is physically or emotionally abusive probably is giving you a gift and declaring his love for you and promising that it will never happen again. He promised that same thing to Nneka. I spent Valentine’s Day of 2007 picking out my daughter’s pink casket. Don’t let this be you. GET OUT! 

Nneka’s mom.

 http://www.wral.com/news/local/video/1203480/#/vid1203480

Neka Talibah Sutton ... Day 1

I woke up Feb 13, 2007... running late! I normally watched the news so i could see the weather before class.... i skipped that step today.

I was at work study ... Moneika calls/text to see what I'm doing , we concluded we should meet up for dinner (nothing abnormal)

Shortly after... Kisha calls and decides she's going to dinner with Moneika and I (not abnormal)

Shortly after that.... Brittani calls and says she too will be coming 2 my room after we get back from dinner (abnormal)

After i got off at work study, we went to B'Ski's, then came back to HJ North ...

I see Moneika take a call and say "we almost got her there", i go in my room, everybody is sitting around and I'm like let's play family feud .... they all looking around at each other (awkward turtle) They rushed me to eat ... i took a bite of my ski

(as i was chewing my phone rang)

it was my mom .... i answered and said i was busy, and hung up.  My mom calls back, i don't answer, and my friend's tell me to answer .... I'm confused *still chewing*

(I answer the phone)

My mom said "i have something to tell you..." (she's crying) I immediately think "who died".... she says "neka was killed this morning" ... *i spit my food out*

I ask "is she ok? which hospital is she at? Where's Maya? Where's Claudette?" (not realizing killed = dead)....

I tell her there must be some mistake .... she told me it was on the news

I tell Moneika to turn on the tv .... *she turns to the news.....*

I see a helicopter circling Neka's house and saying 24 year old Nneka Wilson was found dead this morning ... they showed a note written in her blood *i became sick*

I told Moneika to turn off the tv ... *she turns it off*

I break down.......it's the kind of hurt when you just want to vomit.... you want to make the world stop b/c EVERYTHING is spinning.....I cried like i had NEVER cried.... i kicked my door, broke the plastic on the back of the door, couldn't make it to the room at the end of the hall .... my friends came and got me out the hallway... i screamed and i yelled..... only to realize an hour later .... my cousin wasn't coming back.....

http://www.wral.com/news/local/story/1203107/

Day 27 of 30 - Almost done

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Honestly, I did it because i thought it was going to be easy for me to just practice writing more....  However, 90 something days later, this blog made me dig DEEP inside myself to find the answers to this Challenge.  I typically like challenges BUT this one was AMAZING.... I appreciate Jordan Boone for introducing me to this :) 

I hope that everyone was able to learn something about me, my beliefs, my family, my friends and most important about YOURSELF.  I want to inspire you to challenge yourself, start a blog.... it's such a freeing experience.  I've had people come up to me and talk about my blog and i appreciate YOU, the readers who support and even those who disagree with my methods.  I'm just trying to be a better person (and no it's not cliche' yet lol) and until this blog no longer helps me and others.... I'll continue to share!

God Bless You!

Day 26- What you think about your friends

Day 26- What you think about your friends

 *I decided the easiest way for me to do this would be to work from the friends I've known the longest to shortest ... and not get too in-depth cuzzz (this would be a LONG blog) ALSO I'm going to use alias, even tho they"ll know who they are lol*

Small teeth- I LOVE THIS GIRL! Like we've been through some serious issues and our friendship has been tried SEVERAL times YET we are still friends.  We can go months w/ out talking on the phone BUT when we do... you'd never know it lol I'm sooooo proud of you and even tho you are only older than me (by 20 days) you have taught me SEVERAL things! I love you and I appreciate you for being my friend :)

Quazi - (LMBO @ the only nickname i could think of b/c i call you by your initials smh) yo, i LOVE you kiddo! You remind me so much of me, your strength, your resilience, your fight!  I appreciate you being my friend through the good & the bad, the rumors and the lies.... Thank You! continue to do what you're doing, and i KNOW you'll make it!

Sade (cuz ur middle name is my 1st name) - even tho we aren't BFFs anymore, i want you to know that i LOVE you! You were my BEST friend during some of the most critical years of my life :) We had ups and downs, fights in art class, arguments in algebra (over ur dandruff LMBO), but in the end, i chose to be your friend over the peer pressure 2 act a FOOL!  You made me want to lived a saved life, reminded me to count on God when NO ONE else was a around and i REALLY miss your presence in my life! I love u! I'm SOOOO proud of you!

Miss New Booty- (I am getting MUCH entertainment with these nicknames) anyways, I remember the time i met you in the bathroom and thought you were the NICEST person in the world (only to realize you're RUDE) lol i Love u! I am soooo proud to see you go from "miss private" to someone i can always depend on for unbiased advice!  You moved to another state and still came to visit me & even tho you wanted to KILL me when we were suite mates our friendship survived HJ North lol I'm soo proud of you Dr,PA,MPH, ;)

Sharee - I met you to that faithful day in the bathroom and i thought you were the MEANEST lol (only to find out you have the KINDEST heart ... EVER) I Love YOU! Who would have known that after meeting you in HJ North ... I'd have to talk to you EVERYDAY to figure out what to wear, how to text, when not to skip class, annnnnd which underwear i should put on (j/k).  You honestly are more like a mother to me and i APPRECIATE you loving me despite my bi-polarness smh.  I thank you for your NEVER moving faith in yourself and your dreams! Thank You for being my friend (golden girls)

cONcEntric- mannnnnnnnnnnn we have been through some thangs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol i Love you b/c you ALWAYS give me a perspective that i NEVER expect.  I'm having a bad day and you tell me about sum1 who's house burnt down, has 3 kids and living out a suit case and all of a sudden..... my day doesn't seem THAT bad!  You were with me during some very difficult times (you even saved my life) and for that alone, i OWE you my life.  I appreciate you showing a GREAT example of an independent women!

L. - (i was tempted 2 put the whole thing BUTTTTT i don't want you 2 get mad) I met you over a Phase 10 game and 6 years later, you are the big sister that i never had!  We bump heads like non-other BUT i also love you like non-other!  I appreciate you teaching me about SURVIVING during adversity!  You bring out the fight in me ... to not only fight you BUT fight statistics, the pitfalls of the enemy, my inner demons and I LOVE YOU for EVERYTHING. 

Keep yo key 3 stacks- You saved my LIFE! I remember meeting you across the bathroom and was accused of stealing your pen lol and since i walked across that bathroom ... you NEVER left me alone -_- i'd walk in and you would be in MY room, in MY bed...chillen smh .... we've had our share of ups and downs ESP when you were @ mandatory dodge ball tournaments ... LMBO but on the real, i am soooo proud of you!  You didn't get a job straight out of school, so what did you do? get an internship and kept it moving and i LOVE your ability to pick up the pieces and continue.  We've cried together, laughed together and in the end you literally saved my life ... i LOVE YOU and I owe you my all!

Ram Village 3 - I LOVE YOU GUYZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol ya'll were here for me at a time when i NEEDED it the most! My academic life was breaking down and i remember crying and crying and crying in Ram Village 3 ... i Appreciate  each 1 of you for loving me and taking out time in your busy schedules for my random emotional visits/sleepovers lol.  VD- you are a prayer WARRIOR and I thank you for sharing your testimony, you are AWESOME and i LOVE YOU. Cyst- LMBO i Love you soooo much! you know JUST what to say to break any awkward moment and that's a difficult task! Wolfdog - we thought u was CRAZZZZZZY lol BUT underneath that shell lied the most KIND person i've ever met! I LOVE YOU ... you've provided me soooo much encouragement and welcomed me into your family :)


Superior - Wow, I've known you the shortest ....and I still LOVE YOU! You've been there for me through some very difficult situations!!!!!  I don't remember how nor what day we became friends BUT what i Do know is I'm SOOO glad we did! I give you a hard time b/c you're like a 2nd little sister to me.  I want you to be the BEST at everything (lol even stepping) and you often remind me of myself.  Thank You for all the joy you've bought into my life in such a short time. I LOVE YOU (and the redz 0_o)

Couple Shout Outs b/c I def don't want to leave anybody out

T, Uppity, Deed, Kim, Toya, Chonya, Dez, Chaunacie (I love you ladies too and i think you all are educated, beautiful and will certainly achieve ALL our dreams .... Thank you for taking me in when i was a freshman ... i LOVE YOU ALL)

Special s/o to the men in my life that are the BEST male friends EVER.... I LOVE ALL ya'll soooo much and know that you will make GREAT husbands! Thank You for being my friend!!!!!!!!!: Corey, Julian, Chris, & Gary

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Challenge: Day 25- What I would find in your bag
*i fit 31 things in my Daisy Fuentes bag :)*
 *pictures below smh*

1) my Wallet
2) work schedule
3) Women's accessory
4) lotion
5) UNC School of Law chocolate bar (lol long story)
6) earphone
7) camera
8) batteries (lol for the camera.... u nasty!)
9) 2 plastic spoons (fat kid)
10) Camera USB cord
11) highlighters (student 1st)
12) cough drops
13) 1/2 of a mirror (dunno where the rest is smh)
14) phone case
15) click it or ticket thingy (dunno where it cam from)
16) Wet wipes
17) Box Cutters (don't test me lol)
18) another set of keys (to my momma house and other people's spare keys)
19) my regular set of keys
20) pencils
21) bottle of pills
22) hair clips and ties
23) lip gloss
24) 2 jump drives (from the school of Law)
25) orajel (i had a tooth ache)
26) 2009 Homecoming step show program (ok that's embarrassing)
27) Asthma Pump
28) Love Spell Roll on oil (hood ish)
29) Nose Ring
30) eye drops
31) nose spray (i have allergies)